Farewell President Obama

2015-09-28 19.26.51.pngSome idiot asked me what has President Obama done for me in 8yrs and I asked him why he needed to know he said i just want to know….

First of all as a black woman he gave me hope. As a mother he gave me encouragement for my children. As a tax payer he tried to place some things out there we were lacking and fix the economic issues many communities were dealing with. As an employee in the medical field I saw first hand how our patients took better care of themselves now they had better affordable choices for healthcare. Flat out.

My grandmother who was born in the South in 1924 saw a black president elected before she passed at the age of 84. My mother who was born in 1957 got teased because she looked white with red hair and freckles got chased down 110th from Audubon Jr High school because of hateful negroes, got to see a black President be elected twice. People have had more hope and motivation to go out there and get what they deserve. Men saw a cool, but well spoken man talk politics and spread all his pride around a house,  “The White House” definitely got painted a shade of beige in the last couple of years.

No matter what you all feel he didn’t do you must remember he isn’t God, nor did he get the support nor backing he needed to get the the things we feel he didnt do done. I’m proud of President Barack Obama for placing himself in a role that hasn’t been filled by a man of color in decades. He risked his life and his family’s safety. They didnt want to see Martin, Malcolm, Medgar to succeed either. That will hit you later.

Farewell POTUS and Flotus…. 😟😟

Season’s Greetings

Season’s Greetings

Greetings everyone,  Havent had any interest in blogging but today i want to speak to the heart of those not feeling this holiday season. It’s okay to not want to be bothered with people, places or things that just aggravate your soul. Some folks bring that shit out of you. Some are struggling with grief, loneliness, depression, and financial burdens at this time. Do not surround yourself with…

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Season’s Greetings

Greetings everyone, a5233-lykeblue

Havent had any interest in blogging but today i want to speak to the heart of those not feeling this holiday season. It’s okay to not want to be bothered with people, places or things that just aggravate your soul. Some folks bring that shit out of you. Some are struggling with grief, loneliness, depression, and financial burdens at this time. Do not surround yourself with folks who are not sympathetic to your situation.

I simply i came here to say if someone’s disinterest in your falalalalalalalalala annoys you then back off and let them breathe. They will come out that phase in their own time. Nothing is more telling than a friend distancing themselves from you because they don’t have time to help you go through what ever you are facing. Sit down and listen without replying or offering anything but an ear. Nobody is perfect and everyone has a time to reflect on their life. Some celebrate achievements, on the other hand some look back on the what if’s. Just be understanding and not judgemental.

I recently encountered one of my patients who lost a few things during this holiday season and one was her husband. He isn’t dead but he is immobile and now we know who was keeping her healthy. He was. I feel for her cause she is clearly losing or has lost the ability to care for herself. I pray to God that my kids are able to keep me together when I can’t. I don’t have a boyfriend and I’m not dating right now. No prospects. No interest either. Would be nice but will definitely be a hassle.

I’ll drop a blog close to New Years summing up how 2016 was for me… catch y’all soon.

Silence

Being single brings on alot of silence. Being scared to let someone in brings on alot of anxiety. Being able to see through peoples words and judging byt their actions leaves you so disappointed. I’m at that point of not even being interested in being with another person because what lies beneath the smile and sweet words isnt always what you think it would be.   Very sad aint it? Well a person…

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Silence

Being single brings on a lot of silence. Being scared to let someone in brings on alot of anxiety. Being able to see through people’s words and judging but their actions leaves you so disappointed. I’m at that point of not even being interested in being with another person because what lies beneath the smile and sweet words isn’t always what you think it would be.

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Very sad aint it? Well a person in my past honestly has made me stop and re-evaluate every single person I have been involved with. I find myself asking did they really love me? Did they respect me? Were they worried i wouldn’t let my guard down? Do they ever think about me? That last one is very important. We sometimes have folks in our thoughts that havent had a second thought about you. Crazy. It’s true though.

I have sentence myself to silence. My issues are so big if I keep silent about them maybe no one will notice me and i can move about for the rest of my life feeling safe. I’m fooling myself with what im typing. I love being in love. I love seeing others in love. I love God so love is in me. Just not sure who deserves it. I’m waiting on whoever god has got me paired with. I have had plenty of time to prepare myself. All of this silence is even becoming annoying to me. Hope i am not alone.

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Thanks for reading.

Peace and blessings

 

~Budda

Cold World

  So unless you been under a rock you know the world is reportedly getting worst as the days go by. I’m probably gonna surprise some people when I say if it’s time for the world to end I’m ready. People are not stopping to take in everything that is transpiring right now. They are not thinking…they are reacting. My pastor said something very important this past Sunday during his sermon. He said…

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Cold World

 

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So unless you been under a rock you know the world is reportedly getting worst as the days go by. I’m probably gonna surprise some people when I say if it’s time for the world to end I’m ready. People are not stopping to take in everything that is transpiring right now. They are not thinking…they are reacting. My pastor said something very important this past Sunday during his sermon. He said if what is going on in this world today right now doesn’t affect you, check the color of your skin. You can check that out at this link Olivet Institutional Baptist Church 12:00 noon service. It was a phenomenal sermon. 

Lately I’ve gotten back in church and became a member of my mothers ex husband old church. Been a Godsend for my mood and overall outlook on life. Having to deal with some deep stuff over the last couple years open my eyes to returning to fellowship. It’s true you can’t deal with some things alone. Therapy wasn’t helping at all. I hate crying. I hate having to stare at a medical professional and tell my deepest fears. They can only help so much. Bless them. 

So much killing, and hate, and bad information being traded on these social networks and tv I have often found myself sitting in the quiet. I rather watch drama shows and cartoons nowadays. I spend more time on Netflix than I do with the $160 cable bill I pay every month. I tell you it’s a cold world and i’m not gonna act like i’m immune to it. I just found myself getting caught up in angry conversations with some who don’t share my views. I don’t have to change their mind or the way they think. Just like I had 40 years to learn how to be a decent woman, they had the same time and you can’t unlearn hate, and find compassion is instilled from childhood upbringing. The peace I have can’t be compromised by words. Come for me or my family directly i’m gonna have to show you how i really roll from behind this screen.

What has also been so irritating for me is the amount of people who have taken time out of being clueless to start posting “awakened” status and pictures. Now i know a few people who post a headshot everyday and not one thing that uplifts anything but a man’s penis or some broad booty shaking on a video. Now they want to stand on a soapbox. Listen do you but pay attention to these streets. It’s people around my city dropping like flies for the past 2 weeks and now that the RNC is ending guess what they shooting again. I hope Trump take these drive by dummies with him when he leaves. I have to say our Cleveland Police Department has turned into some real scaredy cats around here. How all these shootings happening if y’all patrolling your neighborhoods? Same areas too. It’s something funky going on y’all. 

Not gonna hold y’all too much longer. thanks for reading and please feel free to look around my blogs and drop a thought, like, or share if you dig it. Blessings people.

~Budda

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So i didnt really post any shout out because first my mom has passed and my father well… he hasn’t been my father for many years. I still pray for him and my mom. She is gone from this world but im sure she gets great pause knowing i still dont have what she felt i needed in my life.

i still will be thankful he and my mother created me in love and not lust. That they tied the knot in haste to stay together while he served this country. I will be thankful for every scar and situations they couldnt protect me from. THey gave me the skills and hard skin to deal with all this bullshit. I am strong because I don’t use my struggles to gain sympathy. I use them to remind everyone they are not alone in this world.

As a mother i always question have i done all i can and theonly answer i need comes from the two that matter. They have 2 parents, a place to lay their head, discipline, and freedom to chose their own path as long as it doesnt harm anyone else. Most importantly they have love and my respect. My kids adore me. They hold me down when im being hard on myself. Thats all i need to be satisfied with this life. I thank god for providing a way for me. I praise him for allowing my mother the opportunity to do her best with me. I pray that God will touch the heart of my father to provide me with at least acknowledment that he voluntariliy missed out on my childhood. I honor them both…just in different ways.

“Do unto others as you would want them to do to you”

Honor thy mother & father…

So i didnt really post any shout out because first my mom has passed and my father well…

Honor thy mother & father…

So i didnt really post any shout out because first my mom has passed and my father well… he hasn’t been my father for many years. I still pray for him and my mom. She is gone from this world but im sure she gets great pause knowing i still dont have what she felt i needed in my life.

i still will be thankful he and my mother created me in love and not lust. That they tied the knot in haste to stay together while he served this country. I will be thankful for every scar and situations they couldnt protect me from. THey gave me the skills and hard skin to deal with all this bullshit. I am strong because I don’t use my struggles to gain sympathy. I use them to remind everyone they are not alone in this world.

As a mother i always question have i done all i can and theonly answer i need comes from the two that matter. They have 2 parents, a place to lay their head, discipline, and freedom to chose their own path as long as it doesnt harm anyone else. Most importantly they have love and my respect. My kids adore me. They hold me down when im being hard on myself. Thats all i need to be satisfied with this life. I thank god for providing a way for me. I praise him for allowing my mother the opportunity to do her best with me. I pray that God will touch the heart of my father to provide me with at least acknowledment that he voluntariliy missed out on my childhood. I honor them both…just in different ways.

“Do unto others as you would want them to do to you”